Become a mom, start a blog. #motherhood

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I guess I will start this first post out by introducing myself.

My name is Courtney and I am a retired (out of commissioned? on hiatus?) .. former, yes that's the word, Veterinary Technician turned SAHM. I live in Laguna Niguel, CA with my fiancé Ryan, our 10 month old son Hudson and our crazy cat Ruby.

So what's my story?

A whirlwind romance, surprise but welcomed pregnancy, an even bigger surprise engagement and a move into our little one bedroom apartment just 20 mins from the beach. Two of the most amazing, wild and jam packed years of my life.

So why start a blog?

I am starting this blog, because I wanted an outlet not only for myself, but for others. To maybe find some solace or some laughter in my experiences with motherhood, relationships or just life in general.

So who is Courtney now?

I guess I am learning who the new me really is. When I was working as a Veterinary Technician, I knew what I was doing and I knew that I was good at what I did. When I became a SAHM I didn't know what I was doing and I didn't know if I was good at it. I had a major identity crisis when Ryan was informed that he had indeed landed a big promotion and I no longer had to go back to work. As happy and amazed at the gift I had been given, of being able to care for my son every day, I was terrified and lost. Post-partum hit me hard, and I found myself shutting off from the outside world and using caring for Hudson as a sort of shield to hide behind. It's taken me a few months to feel somewhat normal again. Through therapy, yoga and some good old fashioned medication, it's improving. I am still not 100%, but I am working daily to get back there. Before my son I didn't realize that I had gained almost all of my self worth from my job, it was how I identified. I wasn't just Courtney, I was Courtney the Vet Tech. Now I am learning to just be Courtney, just that. Not just Hudson's momma, or Ryan's fiancé. I am just me and I am learning to find my self worth from being myself, who knew that was a thing?! Amazing.

So why follow along?

I like to think it'll be an adventure you can join in on. from motherhood to wedding planning, and everything in between. So why not?

Until next time,

BEEP BEEP

Courtney